it's valentines and it's suppose to be a happy lovey dovey day. i feel so horrible about myself because of stupid boys and i don't really understand why i'm doing this to myself. i shouldn't have to feel this way. why do people i don't like always like me??
it's like with every person it gets worse and worse i'm not sure how it could even get worse after changwen but it's like i can't get into a good healthy relationship. i can't do myself a favor. with every one, it gets worse and it makes me worse and it spirals down from there.
i've decided to kick all my bad habits. and telling each one to leave me alone. i don't care if maybe there's one good one in there i don't want to do this anymore.
i love you guys but i don't know who to talk to. also because it's so secretive and no one really knows the circumstances. and also it's so difficult to admit. and it would mean i have to sort out my feelings to tell you how i feel but for now i think i'm happy dumping it in some corner and hoping it will be hidden in the dark and i can just go out and play
Saturday, February 14, 2009
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