cannot

i don't even know what to think. i can't think. erghh (blank) the boyfriend just told me that
we have no future together
he never thought we did
it makes him sad
but yeah sorry life's a bitch

really? and the reasons are just as absurd
i can't speak thai
we're not from the same country
our races are somehow incompatible
and he's really doing me a favor because it's not what i/my parents want

how does he know what i want??

so i'm not the most rationale person in the word. but this is what i want. i want to be with you, can't you see that? i'm willing to make all these sacrifices and try so hard, put in all this effort and now you tell me it's all for nothing, you never saw a future to begin with anyway. what have we been doing??

what am i suppose to do? please tell me. i'm at work. i can't think i can't concentrate i have so much work i don't understand. my heart hurts. i had to dry my tears with paper towels because i don't have tissue. maybe you were speaking in thai and.. someone please translate. i can't do this anymore. take it or leave it.