boy toy with an expiry date

three weeks exactly from today. it's so hard when you know the end. i always get myself into these messes huh why is it so fucked up? i'm going back to every single bad habit. yuup.

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we spent an afternoon lazing in the sun (finally!) playing golf, or trying to for me, and taking polaroids (: oh and the other night i tried this heart bokeh thing. the racist boy made a nazi sign.






i'm going to miss you a lot boy toy.

i went to the grad ball organized by the hong kong kids this weekend too. it was sucha grad affair with champagne and chandeliers haha and everyone was all dressed up in cocktail dresses and i jus wore a little black dress. kinda inappropriate i know but i was poor. it was pretty fun but there was an after party at this kids house and i guess it was kinda noisy because the cops came! there were so many underaged kids omg i think in the end the house owner just paid a fine but i'm not sure as everyone was forced to leave.

i'm getting so attached to you i don't know what to do you're making it difficult by actually wanting to be with me and asking me to be with you.. even though you know it's ending in three weeks. three weeks is too short for a real anything. what am i supposed to do after that without you? i'm not sure why this time i'm not all crazy and want to see you all the time. and why i don't have the crazy we-need-to-sherish-every-moment attitude. maybe i've learnt that thats ineffective and even more destructive. maybe because we spend every day together.