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i just had the worst nightmare ever. i was in a shopping mall. or somewhere. and talking to poom on the phone. we were kinda arguing about something, not a heated argument but i knew in my dream, that we were disagreeing. and then this other person comes on the phone, a voice that i can't identify but sounds vaguely male. then it kinda morphs and it's his ex! and she's like giving me relationship advice? WTH. like how i should be handling this situation, how we both should be reacting and how i can make everything better. all the while in a patronizing, oh you poor stupid girl, voice. i don't know where poom was but i remember being really mortified in the dream. and hanging up and wandering around the mall, lost. i didn't understand why he would do that. was it on purpose or out of sheer exasperation? because i'm not enough? because she's better and will always be better in the relationship? it was really horrible. i woke up really upset and called poom and he laughed at me ):

i think i kinda know why i had that dream. cos we've been kinda having problems about THE EX. ok as an ex myself, i can understand why you should remain friends. i always talk about wanting to be friends with daniel, although he blatantly doesn't want to be. so yes, i can understand it's hurtful to see someone who was your best friend suddenly kick you out of their life. but at the same time, you can't really be friends. you can be acquaintances. there is a line. especially when you broke up LESS THAN SIX MONTHS AGO. RAWR. and i think you need time apart, you can't be friends immediately. and it's so obviously she still likes him!!!! but i hate to be the bitch! argh. ): i mean i know its hard but seriously get a life you stupid bitch. i know he's trying to protect her, god only knows why. he denies it but once it slipped and he actually said it, but i didn't want to say anything about it. sighh i want to be a good understanding girlfriend. i really do.

i thought all the craziness was over? argh. i guess once a crazy, always a crazy.