god's idea of a joke

i don't understand. how things can get worse but i guess they can.

i'm not sure when all this bad luck started. if it was my phone breaking down. or it being stolen. or way before that at the beginning of junior year when the bad karma came.

but whatever it is i hope there's a reason for this and some meaning to it that maybe it's all leading up to some big boom that i will 'emerge a stronger and better person'

or god must really not exist or i did some real horrible shit in my past life and this is payback.

because guess what i don't have an internship anymore. here we go again.