march 1
5:07pm london time
I'm on the plane right now and for some reason I feel incredibly sad that I'm leaving london. I don't know why. I don't think normal people feel so sad that a holidays ended its slightly ridiculous. but its like I'm leaving after summer all over again. I guess because I really miss you guys so much and it felt so good, familiar yet surreal to see everyone in london. slow and becky and even the boys. sarah I miss sleeping in your bed.
I actually need to concentrate and study. because I am such a retarded person and can never make up my mind, I extended my stay in london by one day. so now I have an interview the day I get back (I land round midnight) and I'm unprepared. I have no idea what I'm doing anymore what kind of rational person would stay one just one more day and potentially jeopardize an interview?
its really miserable flying alone. airplanes are the loneliest and emptiest places. I guess its good for crying. I don't know what I want anymore nothing makes me satisfied. I've decided to give up boys. I know I know its the second time I'm saying it but... there's no point. I hate airplanes they bring out the worst in me.
8:41pm london time
ok studyings getting kinda better.. took two naps haha being in london made me realize how much my friends mean to me. No matter how close I get to my college friends, it will never be the same. there's noone I can roll around in bed with, walk aimlessly without talking, simultaneously burst out laughing at I'm not even sure what but something we both know. I miss you london. my heart is heavy.
1:34am michigan time
i'm home! and still equally sad. can't sleep raa
Monday, March 2, 2009
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aww izz. i totally know how u feel.
ReplyDeletefelt it a little when i went to LA, and I didn't even meet up with any of you guys. but yeah can't imagine how it must be. haha but i did cry after the like 2 days i spent with kren and swong in Melbourne. but yeah hang in there!! (:
shu